God Is My Inspiration…

This is a writing to share with all of you on how much it means to me to write for the Lord:) It’s a beautiful thing to have a special connection with Him. I hope you enjoy!

God Is My Inspiration…

God is my inspiration. He’s the One that speaks through my heart with words of love and truth. He speaks with clarity and imagination that makes my heart have sight of seeing, of hearing and of feeling. The words He speaks through my spirit-man are beautiful, touching the deep bellows of my soul. His warm, re-assuring presence brings unspeakable joy into my life. His words are mysteries like the inspiring Parables He left behind.

Everyday, I grow closer to the One that inspires me to write. He keeps me going. He keeps me fighting and He keeps me believing in Him and in myself. I crave for more of His beautiful words of love and truth, to write poems. I love to share these poems, hoping, praying, and wanting the One that inspired me to write them, will use me to touch the lost souls that haven’t found or known Him.

I want Him to use me to get to the ones that need Him the most. The delicate one’s that need to be saved, healed, loved, encouraged, and forgiven.

I want Him to help me awaken my generation, to free their souls with His agape, unconditional love.

I want to say: ‘God Is My Inspiration’ of my heart…for His promises of love and truth are faithful words that will never die or diminish. They are inscribed upon my heart till the very end of age!

Testimony

I wanted to share my testimony with all of you:)

All my teen life I have been teased and tormented by people a little younger than me, and still unfortunately this was continuing into my adulthood. Men and women would often tease me by talking behind my back in groups; if it wasn’t my looks it wouldn’t be long before something else would be said about me. I was a easy target, a ‘soft touch’. Why? Simply, because I attended special classes due to my learning disabilities.

Biting my lip became second nature to me. My loving parents always gave me good advice, right from an early age they would tell me, “Andrea, don’t let them get to you sweetheart…don’t you rise to their bait, okay….just ignore them!!” I had learnt to tell myself (often looking at my reflection in a mirror), that I am a good person and they don’t know me and their, the one’s with a problem, not me!

One thing I did have though was Faith. Faith to always believe that things can only get better. I loved God. From an early age as often as I can remember, I would often pray in the quietness of my bedroom, that the LORD would scatter all my enemies abroad, until the LORD spoke to me through His Word.

One day after reading the Holy Bible, I came across a powerful Scripture verse which spoke to my heart, “Bless your enemies and do good to them even if they don’t do good to you!”

I must admit in all honesty that this has been hard for me for quite a number of years but, through time, patience, and a compassion for others, I’ve learnt to love all people regardless of their color or age group. I would seek my LORD’S face, ‘my very present help in times of trouble’ ; by simply praying to Him - my comforter, I felt comforted and safe.

Dear Reader, yes, I want to tell you, there were many days when I took as much as I possibly could take. I also learnt that simply ignoring the problem wouldn’t really solve the issue. You can defend yourself to a certain degree but it still won’t get rid of all the name-calling and off-cuff remarks!  The days I did give in though were very miserable for me. You, see, I started to believe their mean words they spoke about me. I began to hate myself, and everything else to do with my life-style. I hated the world, I hated my clothes, I hated my neighbors, I even hated going out shopping with my parents. I just didn’t want to be seen in public with my family and friends. It had become so bad, that some days, I just wanted to put a bag over my head when I went out anywhere. I couldn’t look myself in the mirror anymore. I cried every day and every night I would cry myself to sleep. Basically, I lost myself completely, including my relationship with God.

My loving parents didn’t know what to do with me anymore. They would often discuss amongst themselves whether or not to take me out of this special school. I also believe they contemplated moving away from the area at one point. My mom even wanted to go over to the school and beat up all the kids that were mean to me. I lost faith and belief in myself. I lost my self-esteem because they treated me like a monster from outer space. To tell you the truth I wanted to die. I thought of committing suicide every day. There were a few days when I even had a knife in my hand and was so tempted to cut my wrists. I thought by ending my life, I would just make everyone happy that was cruel to me. But, something and someone stronger than the evil words  that were being placed on my confused and troubled mind, kept repeating these words in my head,  “If, you do this Andrea, you will lose God for all eternity. Suicide, is not of ME… If you do this you will hurt the ones that love and care about you the most!!”

My friend, there is a way out of every problem we face in life today. And, I probably wouldn’t be here today to share my testimony with you, had I not let those loving words that God spoke through His precious Holy Spirit to me. By repeatively speaking them to my brain my mind-set, I began to let them sink deep, deep down, into the very bellows of my soul!!..

After my freshman year, I met many new people that were and are still so wonderful, that treated me like I was someone special. They helped me find God and myself again. I started to go to a local Youth group, and I just grew more and more closer to God and falling in love with Him and His Word. Not long after, I then discovered my unique gift of writing and expressing myself on paper. My Pastor of the church I started to attend asked me if I was saved and I told him,  ’I'm not sure, I did ask God in my heart when I was much younger to be my personal LORD and Savior’.  He felt led in his spirit-man, to repent and re-dedicate my life back to my first-love, Jesus Christ. I agreed, and, Yes, God turned my life around once more!!

After, saying a sinner’s prayer again, I was resaved and free. And, here I am today…..head-over-heels in love with my LORD Jesus Christ. I’m more in love with Him today, than I ever was and it is awesome feeling to share this with you. Remain blessed, remain loved, and remain highly favoured in His faithful name. <AMEN>

I am Blessed:)

7 years ago, I hating my life and myself. That there’s no reason to live, I’m not worth it, and life just isn’t important etc… Yeah, “I was doing a poor me” but, from being teased and being around a lot of people that were very negative in my life kind of made me that way. Until, 3 little beautiful miracles enter into my life Kiara, Trenton and Anna they completely change my life and changed me. Those thought and feelings was no more. They showed me how precious and important life truly is specially, when you have them in your life:) I just become soo in love with these 3  which you can’t help it lol. I just think it’s so awesome whenever your feeling down, hurt, struggling, or having a bad day, or just sick, and when they enter to the room and give you a great big smile and say “HI ANNIE” Those bad and sick days never exist I forget that I even had those kind of days. When I’m around them I feel in peace, free, relax, and in love. I feel the Lord presence through them. Because, they live life to the fullest! They love life and they don’t let anyone or anything ruined that for them. I have to say these 3 specially kids that enter my life aren’t just my nieces and my nephew and my friends, they are my heroes. They helped me connect with the Lord and they remind me that life is an adventure, and worth living. I’m learning a lot through them on keep fighting, keep believing, keep loving, keep going, keep growing, keep living your life for God because, that is worth everything! I have to thank you Lord for blessing me with these 3 amazing kids in my life! Your such a loving God!

My Heart’s Prayer to the Holy Spirit

My heart sings to the Lord with lovely praises…

My heart speaks out to Him, telling Him to take full control over me, take me away to the heavens were you stay above…And saying let us hear your beautiful voice and your beautiful music and let us dance with you by holding hands with joy and laughter…

My heart asks him to go through my body through my veins to my heart to my soul and paralyze me with your amazing awesome love…

My heart tells Him how thankful I am for everything…And for all that he is and all that he does…

My heart tells Him thank you for bring me to life and in a new born world…

I want to hear his thunder; I want to see his beautiful light of his smile…

I want to see Him, I want to feel Him, and I want to think of Him…

I want to be your warrior, your fighter, your believer, your follower, your lover; your messenger, I want to be everything that you deserve that you want…

I want to see the beauty of your creations in every surroundings…

I want to see the heavenly part of life that is positive that is strong, beautiful, and happy with your joy and grace…

I want to worship you, I want to listen to you, I want to dance with you, and I want to write about you, learn about you, love you…

I ask you to take all my bad surroundings all my demons, all my sins, all my bad thoughts, and memories away and turn it all too lovely things…

I ask him to bless every living thing on this earth and to forgive them for their sins, and to love and help them…And to protect them and show the way to you or go to them and never give up on fighting for them…Help them to forgive their selves so they can move on to a new life…

I thank Him for all he blessed me with…For my beautiful wonderful family and friends…And to bless their love ones their friends…And to protect them… And please do so for mine and their enemies…And help me and them to love our enemies…

I ask Him to help us to take each day slowly by one and to enjoy them…

I ask him to give me a healing gift that I can heal others that I can help them…

I ask Him to help me go toward my surroundings with no fear…

I ask Him to allow me to go toward people and to make new friends…

I ask Him to give me the strength and the power of his love and his encouragement to do what I’m here to do and on my journey through life…And to spread his name and his love to all…And I ask Him to help me to turn unbelievers to believers…

I ask Him to help me speak out and stand up…

I ask Him to help me to have faith and belief in myself so I’m in a positive strong mood were I could make it to sink into others…I tell Him don’t let me be down on myself don’t let me be in a bad mood and in a disrespectful mood toward others and myself…

My heart says oh Holly one, we need you, we want you, and we can’t live without you, we are lost when you are not near us, when you’re not in us…

I say please Lord Help the ones that need you the most, help them go toward you; help them to see every road, every path, every way toward you…

Please Lord heal all the woes, all the physical and mental illness, or please help them to be able to control them…

Just let us see your beautiful face when we close our eyes…

Please Lord when we do fall down on our knees don’t let us go back to our dark place let us go to into the light you are in…

Don’t go away, don’t leave us, don’t die away, don’t pass us by, don’t fade away, stay with us, be apart of us, be one with us, stay with us through our surroundings and when we are by ourselves, Just stay alive!!!! Take over!!!! Take control!!!!! Come to us!!!! We love you!!!! We thank you for everything!!!! Thank you Lord for listen to me and always being there for me…And thank you for answering my prayers, and thank you for your blessings, I love you, we love you…

In your Son’s name Amen!!!!

Sharing Time Part 2

DANCING WITH MY GOD…

I go to my favorite spot alone, where there’s only the beauty of life all around me…

I lie down and close my eyes. I dream about God, of holding hands with Him, dancing in a circle underneath the moon, the stars, the sky, the sun, and the clouds; underneath everything, day and night, with no worries or fear. Just love and happiness…And we never get tired of dancing

When we look around us, we see and hear everything from our beautiful surroundings…

The wind was singing a melody…

The mountains were roaring…

The streams and rivers were dancing…

The ground was shaking with excitement…

The beautiful clear blue sky was sparkling in our eyes…

The sun was smiling down at us with its beautiful, bright light…

I turn myself toward Him with a smile, and I see him smiling back at me…

I wrap my arms around him and whisper in his ear, “I love you, my beautiful Holy One, and I adore you….”

He whispers in my ear, “I love you too; my child and I adore you, as well….”

My heart was filled with excitement. I felt so free, so relaxed, so welcome, and so alive. I could breathe again and I couldn’t think of all the bad things around me, or all the bad things that have happened to me….

Felt like nothing could come between us now…

I felt like this will never end…It’s just so amazing and so beautiful that I can not forget…

THE VICTORY…

The battle is over…

The day is done and the night has awakened…

The Smoke is rising from the fire in the fields next to the never ending stream…

Warriors in shining golden armor holding hands dancing around the fire place singing with their loud cheerful voices to their king…

Bright golden stars in the dark blue night skies made a beautiful face appeared with a smile…

The warriors looked up and saw that it was their King smiling down at them while they dance and sing to him with celebration…

The ground shook with excitement…

God’s beautiful creations came to join the celebration…

The night never ends…

The night will never be forgotten…

The King’s love was more alive and the freedom was solved…

And all became a family of love…

NO WHERE TO GO…

I have fallen in my dark, cold, lonely place once more filled with nothing but demons all around me…

I hear their voices calling out my name…I’m crying with fear…

I can’t stand, I can’t walk, and my knees are shaking with no strength just weakness…

I just couldn’t move I felt paralyzed from my shoulders down to my knees…

The voices of the demons are getting closer and closer…Their shouting out your nothing, you don’t belong here in this life; you’re just a waste of nothing but weakness…

I hear them repeating it over and over again…And I’m crying out oh my Holy Father please save me, help me, don’t let them harm me… The demons said he won’t save you he doesn’t care about you or your cries for help…

I lift my head up with my eyes closed and tears falling down my face and I’m yelling out with a cry once more and said my Holy Father Please save me I need you please shine your light down on me and lift me out of this horrible dark place I am in…

When I started to open my eyes and look down all the sudden there was a mysterious bright light piercing through the darkness and in this mysterious bright light were beautiful soft gentle hands reaching down to me…I reach up and touch them and they pulled me out the darkness of this cold lonely hole…

When I looked up and seen who these gentle hands belongs too…It was my Holy Father he had a bright beautiful smile on his face and said my child you are free and when you have fallen, I’m here to catch you, I’m here to help you I’m here to heal you and I’m here for you always because I love you…I will not let the demons come between us or harm you…

Before I could say thank you my Holy Father…He was gone…But the mysterious bright light stayed with me, protecting me from harm and guiding me until I made it to the path out of darkness…

Than it vanished out of sight…The wind blew in my ears and I could hear the freedom song…

I whisper and said thank you my Holy Father for saving me and for loving me…You are so great and wonderful…

After I said that I went into my home with a bright smile on my face…I felt stronger than ever and my spirit was bright and filled with beautiful life…

More than a thousand miles…

I run more than a thousand miles each day to get to you…

Every mile I go, I wonder how close I would be to finally reach you and to see your face with a smile of proud and welcoming on it…

I open my heart and my eyes wider on every step I take on every move I make…

I hold my arms wide open waiting for you to run into them and wrap your arms around me by giving me the kind of hug that I always dreamed of…And to hear what kind of words you would say to me when we finally meet face to face…I wonder what you would look like, what kind of perfume you would be wearing and what kind of voice you would have…I have so many questions going through my mind with so much excitement join together… I just can not stop thinking about it; I just can not wait for that day and that moment to come, I know it will not be forgotten because that day and moment will repeat itself over and over again….

Flame of life…

My flame of life is lit by your gentle hands to make it rise again…It grows with your strength and power…You made me burn with passion inside that I can not deny… You made me glow with beauty that will be notice and not ignored. Nothing can not take this flame out its too strong and its protected by you…You are the shield and armor for this flame to burn and to be ever lasting and eternal…

An imagination came to life…

I’m in the middle of the battle field fighting in between good and evil…

And all that I could think about, all that I could see and imagine is my Holy Father standing at the end of that battle field glowing with beauty and arms held out to me welcoming me to his Kingdom…

On every step I took I could hear his callings getting closer and closer to me…I didn’t look back to all the bloodshed that is behind me…

Instead I kept my eyes on him and just run toward him with no fear and no worries…

My heart was beating so fast filled with so much excitement to see him in front of me…

All I wanted was to go to my eternal home with nothing but freedom filled with love and peace…And to be with my Holy Father…But I know that time will come and I’m waiting for it…

Eternal Love…

You open those gates to my heart with your gentle soft hands by allowing your

Eternal love to flow in me…

When it flows in it never dies…

Instead it grows life by filling me with this kind of passion that is so strong

And so pure it makes me feel beautiful and worthy inside…

I can not stop craving for more in every heart beat that I have…

It just can not be ignored it’s too irresistible and powerful…

Sharing Time:)

I think for the next couple blogs, I’m going to post some of the writings that I written in the past…I know a lot of you have already seen these but, this so for those that haven’t. I hope you all enjoy and I hope their encouraging:) The first writing I’m going to post is my very first writing when I found out that God blessed me with this gift. It was a beautiful moment to be so connected to Him, I felt nothing but, his love, encouragement, and his presence all around me and in me. That was the day that our friendship grew more stronger than ever! Well, here is the very first writing that well, I should say God and I wrote together:)

NEVER ENDING STREAM OF GOD’S LOVE…

I lay down on the tall grass far away from the dark surroundings…

I closed my eyes picturing myself laying in a beautiful field filled with beautiful heavenly creatures that are all around me with no fear just beauty…

I ask show me yourself O Beautiful Holy One that helped me to picture this field of beauty…

Then I opened my eyes from this beautiful image that I had but my heart still repeating the same question over and over again…

While I’m looking up at the dark cloudy sky I asked again O Beautiful Holy One let me see your beautiful face with a smile looking down on me, let me hear your songs that you sing to me, and let me feel your fire of encouraging love going through me like a running stream of water that never ends…

When I’m still looking at the dark cloudy sky it started to open and showing me the beautiful rays of light’s from the sun next to the beauty of the blue clear ocean sky that is hiding behind the dark clouds…

After all this had happen a beautiful mysterious face appeared on the blue clear ocean sky and this beautiful mysterious face was smiling down at me…It was the Beautiful Holy One and his words were, Here I am my child I’m here so you can see my beautiful face with a smile looking down at you, and I sing you my songs for you to hear them, I’m here to let you feel my fire of encouraging love going through you like a running stream of water that never ends…

And I’m always here with you right by your side I’ll never leave it…I love you my child always…Have faith on your journey and be strong, believe in yourself and in me I will protect you, I will guide you, I will bless you with all the things you need and want…If you need me just ask me and I’ll be there to help you…

And his last words were Good bye my child, I love you…

Before I could say good bye and I love him too he was gone right before my eyes…But a strong wind of air blew through me and I felt his present still near me I felt so strong, so powerful, and so unstoppable…And I will never forget this powerful awesome moment…He will always be in my thoughts, in my mind, and in my heart I will make sure he’s alive and high inside everyone in this world…

Saved From the Quicksand

Before, I share this writing with you, I just wanted to let you all
know that I wrote this about a few months ago.
For probably a few years
I have stopped writing, and grew
distance from the Lord. I been struggling with my relationship
with Him for a very long time. So, it was really
great to hear from Him again and to write again!
When I write I grow closer to Him:) I believe,
Writing is my strength of growing and keep fighting for my King:)
I hope you all enjoy this writing and I hope
it encourage you too! Oh, please excuse the spelling, grammar and etc too.
Well, thank you for letting me share
this with all of you! Please enjoy!

Saved From the Quicksand

I'm struggling, I'm fighting, I'm suffocating in the quicksand but,
when I look up trying to gasp for air there you stand with open
arms reaching out for me to be the hero that save the day.
Telling me "not to give up on myself and on you" and "not to be
afraid because, you will never leave me" You keep speaking with
words of encouragement and confidence that gives me the courage
to fight and to lift my body out of the sand and to move toward you.
I feel the quicksand breaking up from underneath me and the fear
of failing is fading away. I’m becoming taller than the sand and
noticing it’s losing the battle of holding me in. I feel relief when
I can move my upper part of my body free but, my legs is trapped down in.
I can’t move! I start to panic and looked up at him and
speak to him through my eyes saying “I trust in you and it’s in your
hands now” He smiles at me and asked me to close my eyes
and take a deep breath in and be calm. I did
what he told me and I felt warm and strong arms wrapped around me,
holding me tight and that lifts me out of the sand. I can hear his heart
beat it sounds so beautiful. I don’t want to open my eyes; instead I want to
hear the beautiful sound of the heart that is pure and full of life but, 
I’m also curious
to see who this wonderful man that saved me.
I slowly open my eyes with excited and surprised to see this 
wonderful man is my Father and the King of love, hope, 
and encouragement that saved me. I grabbed his hand holding
Him tight and feeling safe in his presence when we start to walk away 
I looked right at Him “thanking him for being the hero that he is and 
for staying at my side till the end. He looked at me with a smile of 
gold on his face and he said “You are welcome my
beautiful daughter” We walked toward his kingdom 
hearing his people cheering for Him whiling we enter the Kingdom 
they gather around me and held my hand and his hand. We
started to dance and celebrate the night away with praising of love 
for our Father and for our King. What a great night to be saved by 
a wonderful King that is true to his people.