I’m having a lot of second thoughts and doubts about being an STNA for a while now. I know from the last posted I said thats what I want to pursued but, even then I was having doubts.
I’m starting to think I’m not going to go into this type of field I mean I believe one of my callings is to help people but, I don’t think this is the way for me to do.
I been researching and listen to stories that my sister and other people that are in this field and from listening to them and seeing that this job drains them physically and mentally. Because, of caring for the elderly they do get attach to them and they work with patients that are worse condition than others. Like not only they have bad health issues but, some of them have mental health issues too. I just don’t think I can handle the pressure of knowing someone’s life is in my hands. I know every job has its challenges and that all jobs are stressful and they drain you. But, from sitting on the side lines and listening to those that are in this line of work you can tell this job is probably one of the worst on draining and being stressful.
Don’t get me wrong this job is also one of the most awarding jobs in the world of knowing that your making a difference in the peoples lives by being their for them, taking care of them, and just making them feel good about themselves were they feel independent. That is a blessing.
But, you need to have the right amount of compassion, patiences, and the strength of wanting to be a nurse. You also need be independent and confident were you make the right decisions on any situations that you are in. I mean your dedicating your time to those that completely depend and trust you. I just wanted to do the best thing and the right thing for me and also for those that will be involved with my decision.
So, this been laying hard on my heart, I don’t know what to do. I been praying and hoping for the Lord’s guidance and help on me making the right decision on what I want to do and be in my life.
By the way no matter what I decide to do I am continue to go to the ABLE program to refresh myself on my learning. That program has been wonderful to me. I have been learning a lot and I’m not giving it up either:)
Anyways, I will be grateful for all of your prayers:) Thank you for listening to me! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
